I was just sure that after missing two nights sleep this week due to contractions that I would be well on my way to labor today. In fact, I had convinced myself that today was the day. I've always loved the number 4, so what better day for a birthday? (I have a 4th and a 16th, great numbers, a 6th, an ok number, and an 11th and a 23rd, terrible numbers. I mean who wants their birthday to fall on a prime number? I was born on the 2nd, by the way. Is it odd that I have a thing for numbers? I forget that most people don't think about such things. Remember, this OCD chick popped a tendon in her finger a couple of weeks ago cleaning a stain out of her carpet. Hey, at least I no longer have an invisible string that trails along behind me requiring I always go out the way I came in. Either that or I just do it automatically now. I do, however, have to wear a splint on my finger for 2 more months!) Anyway, I learned at my appointment that my cervix has not changed. Not one bit. I'm still 75% and 3.5. At least Baby Calvin has turned and is no longer posterior. I suppose that could have been stalling things.
I admit that I'm weak. I've given in. I know I said I wasn't going to be induced this time around, but here I am at that oh so desperate stage once again. I made an appointment for next Monday morning, just... in... case. According to my estimates, he'll weigh 9.5 Lbs by then so I'm hoping to go into labor before Monday. Somehow having the appointment helps keep hope alive. This pregnancy will end. And to let you know how desperate I am to have this baby, next Monday is the 11th! I've got to go into labor before then. If not today, maybe the 8th. I've always liked the number 8, since it's a multiple of 4 and all.
In other news, my bedroom is getting wallpapered this week. I've been vacuuming up 7.5 yrs worth of dust bunnies from behind bookcases, the entertainment center, dressers, and our bed. It is quite embarassing the amount of dust we've been living with. It's amazing we can breathe at all in there. But, does anyone move furniture that heavy if they don't have to? I have 10 large stacks of books, many textbooks, in my closet right now awaiting purging and reorganization before being reshelved. Why do I have such trouble parting with books? I keep thinking I may need to look something up in one of them.
And just to show you I haven't completely lost my sense of humor, though I'm definitely a bit more sardonic than usual, I'll end with a cute story. As we were driving along in the car the other day we passed a field that was planted with cotton (not something you see everyday around here). Measle (7) turned to me and exclaimed in a most excited tone, "Mom, is that manna?" She was disappointed to learn it was just cotton. I don't know if I should be happy that she remembered manna was white and covered the fields each morning or concerned that she missed the little fact that the Israelites were in the desert with no grocery stores. Oh well, she was partially listening anyway.
- I'm an on-the-run mom to 6 kids who studied and taught exercise science in a previous life. I love all things running, nutrition, and health-related. I usually run at zero dark thirty in the morning and am often quite hungry before, during, and after my run, but I live a rich, full, blessed life with my children, family, and friends. My faith in God is my anchor, and looking to Him and His promises allows me to live fully even when life circumstances are difficult. While running gives me an appetite, my desire is to hunger and thirst for righteousness more than for physical food.